deep in the ocean, there lies a wave for you

My best friend is moving away to New York City by way of a noon train today.

I think I have not started processing that she is no longer down the block and that our unplanned-but-routine weekday evenings of yoga plus roasted vegetables or takeout and ice cream plus a viewing of select reality television shows or 30 Rock are no longer convenient to arrange.

I feel unsettled, but then she is the one leaving the city closest to the town she’s from and the other where she attended college. She is the one making changes and taking risks. So I also feel envious and proud and excited.

And now, at least, I will always have something to look forward to, because there will always be some near-future date I will see her on.